I Am Not Your Perfect Mexican Daughter

I Am Not Your Perfect Mexican Daughter

I Am Not Your Perfect Mexican Daughter by Erika L. Sánchez is a young adult novel about Julia Reyes, a 15-year-old in Chicago navigating grief, mental health, and cultural pressures after her “perfect” sister, Olga, dies in a tragic accident. Julia struggles with her traditional Mexican immigrant parents’ expectations while uncovering secrets about Olga, finding her own path toward independence and self-acceptance.

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What’s surprised me most about seeing my sister dead is the
lingering smirk on her face. Her pale lips are turned up ever so
slightly, and someone has filled in her patchy eyebrows with a
black pencil. The top half of her face is angry—like she’s ready to
stab someone—and the bottom half is almost smug. This is not the
Olga I knew. Olga was as meek and fragile as a baby bird.
I wanted her to wear the pretty purple dress that didn’t hide her
body like all of her other outfits, but Amá chose the bright yellow
one with the pink flowers I’ve always hated. It was so unstylish, so
classically Olga. It made her either four or eighty years old. I could
never decide which. Her hair is just as bad as the dress—tight,
crunchy curls that remind me of a rich lady’s poodle. How cruel to
let her look like that. The bruises and gashes on her cheeks are
masked with thick coats of cheap foundation, making her face
haggard, even though she is (was) only twenty-two. Don’t they
pump your body full of strange chemicals to prevent your skin
from stretching and puckering, to keep your face from resembling
a rubber mask? Where did they find this mortician, the flea
market?
My poor older sister had a special talent for making herself less
attractive. She was skinny and had an okay body, but she always
managed to make it look like a sack of potatoes. Her face was pale
and plain, never a single drop of makeup. What a waste. I’m no
fashion icon—far from it—but I do feel strongly against dressing
like the elderly. Now she’s doing it from beyond the grave, but this
time it’s not even her fault.
Olga never looked or acted like a normal twenty-two-year-old. It
made me mad sometimes. Here she was, a grown-ass woman, and
all she did was go to work, sit at home with our parents, and take
one class each semester at the local community college. Every
once and a while, she’d go shopping with Amá or to the movies
with her best friend, Angie, to watch terrible romantic comedies
about clumsy but adorable blond women who fall in love with
architects in the streets of New York City. What kind of life is that?
Didn’t she want more? Didn’t she ever want to go out and grab the
world by the balls? Ever since I could pick up a pen, I’ve wanted to
be a famous writer. I want to be so successful that people stop me
on the street and ask, “Oh my God, are you Julia Reyes, the best
writer who has ever graced this earth?” All I know is that I’m going
to pack my bags when I graduate and say, “Peace out,
mothafuckas.”
But not Olga. Saint Olga, the perfect Mexican daughter.
Sometimes I wanted to scream at her until something switched on
in her brain. But the only time I ever asked her why she didn’t
move out or go to a real college, she told me to leave her alone in a
voice so weak and brittle, I never wanted to ask her again. Now I’ll
never know what Olga would have become. Maybe she would have
surprised us all.
Here I am, thinking all of these horrible thoughts about my
dead sister. It’s easier to be pissed, though. If I stop being angry,
I’m afraid I’ll fall apart until I’m just a warm mound of flesh on the
floor.
While I stare at my chewed-up nails and sink deeper into this
floppy green couch, I hear Amá wailing. She really throws her
body into it, too. “Mija, mija!” she screams as she practically
climbs inside the casket. Apá doesn’t even try to pull her off. I
can’t blame him, because when he tried to calm her down a few
hours ago, Amá kicked and flailed her arms until she gave him a
black eye. I guess he’s going to leave her alone for now. She’ll tire
herself out eventually. I’ve seen babies do that.
Apá has been sitting in the back of the room all day, refusing to
speak to anyone, staring off into nothing, like he always does.
Sometimes I think I see his dark mustache quivering, but his eyes
stay dry and clear as glass.
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